Just feeling down...

Lately, I have been feeling down. A little depressed in ways; make that really depressed. Ever since I got the chance to see the love of my life, him being everything and more that I expected. It is even harder to cope with being apart. Every night I go to bed, I sit there staring up at my roof, thinking madly about him. Looking to my side, and seeing nothing there, it is just so depressing. Almost every night is a battle to get myself to sleep; I am forced into putting myself into a "Chemical coma" of sorts. Four 25 mg benadryl, and two 3mg melatonin is what it takes to put me out. It is tiring, and annoying. When he was here, I did not have to take any type of drug to lull myself to sleep. Just the fact that he was in arms reach was more than enough to get me to sleep. Now though, since he is gone again. Sleep has proven extremely elusive. Whenever I lay my head down to rest, I start thinking madly about him; my mind starts thinking at a pace that I cannot even keep. Well, it just proves how much I am in love with him, and it will make our relationship all the more better. I know it will.