The hours tick by now...

The hours just tick by, till the time my boyfriend finally arrives. This all still feels like just a dream, it’s hard to believe, everything seems so surreal. It is reality though; I have to pound that fact into my head, yet it still feels like a dream. I find myself not feeling nervous, it troubles me. Should I feel nervous, should I feel scared? I have no clue. I still can’t believe that this is happening, that this is for real. The fact that I am going to meet the true love of my life still boggles my mind. It is hard to process; it leaves my mind agog with endless thoughts, and endless fears. What if we don’t hook up? What if this is too good to be true? It just scares me, but I still press on. I can never know if this is meant to me if I do not try. So I will stand proudly against the harsh, bitter winds of fate, and wait for what it has in store for me.