WOOT!!! HE IS HERE!!

Well the hour has finally come at last! HE IS HERE! He is everything and more than I expected him to be. It all still seems so surreal; it is almost like a dream. Its reality though, and it is kick freaking ass! I love it and him even more... there is just so much to say. Nothing in the English lexicon can describe how I can feel. I just truly love him, forever.

The hours tick by now...

The hours just tick by, till the time my boyfriend finally arrives. This all still feels like just a dream, it’s hard to believe, everything seems so surreal. It is reality though; I have to pound that fact into my head, yet it still feels like a dream. I find myself not feeling nervous, it troubles me. Should I feel nervous, should I feel scared? I have no clue. I still can’t believe that this is happening, that this is for real. The fact that I am going to meet the true love of my life still boggles my mind. It is hard to process; it leaves my mind agog with endless thoughts, and endless fears. What if we don’t hook up? What if this is too good to be true? It just scares me, but I still press on. I can never know if this is meant to me if I do not try. So I will stand proudly against the harsh, bitter winds of fate, and wait for what it has in store for me.

Blah, boored again... *sigh*

Well, as useal. Boredom has set in. This is the thing I hate about summer and winter break, the boredom is terrible. I almost find myself back in the same spot as in last summer, it is almost that bad. One is my saveing grace though, my boyfriend. He has helped me so much, in so many ways. He has helped keep my saninty within reach (or what little is left of it, if any) Basically, he has helped me thoughout quite possibly the toughest time of my life. For that, I am forever grateful.

On another note, here is a random pome thing that I have wrote up.

Title: Tires screeching..

Turn the key
Feel the roar
Take the wheel
Mash the pedal
Tires screeching
Losing traction
Let off the gas
Get it back under control
Nervous
Palms sweaty
Knuckles white
Foot still on the pedal
Proceeding in life
Trying to keep it under control
Take the first turn
Slide off the track
Panic...
Fear...
Spinning out of control
Time of despair
Recover now
Get back on track
Accelerate
Take the second turn
Grace..
Perfect how you steer life
Knowledge
Take the line
The best you can
Tires still screeching
Still under control
Life is on track
Never stop
Never slow down
Do the best you can
Persistence...
Practice...
Experience...
The three keys to life
Listed right here.

I dunno, random poem time..

Title: The reason

Am I the reason you breathe?
Or am I the reason you cry?
A feeling ever swelling
It always being there
Longing...
All I hear is the sound of my mind
Seeking something
Never resting
No content
I did not know what to do
Ignorance...
Ever searching
For my minds content
Yet I found more than I need
Fate was on my side
Everything was happening
Blinding speed
The growing feeling
Growing ever more
Love
Replacing the old thoughts
Renewing my soul
The beginning
A gift that can not be stolen
Or given away
Love
The only thing I need
Nothing more, nothing less

The day looms ever closer!!!

Well, as the hours pass by now. I think about how glad I will be when I get to hold my boyfriend in my arms finally. That sense of longing finally going away, just finally being with him is all that I want.

Ill make sure to get some pictures of our ventures around Cali for you guys (well our ventures around the bay area is more like it)

Sixth round of lyrics

Well I decided to go a little dark on this set of lyrics, so here you go...

Title: For whom the bell tolls

On that day

Heart full of sorrow

Mind mute with despair

Everything was lost

I could not believe it

This shouldn’t have happened

Why did it happen?

What reason did you have?

To leave this earth

We were so happy

We were so content

What drove you to commit

Such a desperate act?

You didn’t think

How much it would hurt

How much it would hurt me

The only thing to look forward to in life

Now gone

Resting before me

With a dull, white, expressionless face

The look on your face, undecided

Just blank

Yet I still stand there

Asking why?

What did I do?

Why did it come to this?

I had no clue

I could not figure it out

It was just too late

I could not help

The felling of sorrow ever growing

My mind broken

Along with my heart

There was a bond in between us

That could not be broken

Yet it broke

Today though

I thank god for every day

That I get to spend with you

I thank him for preventing such an act

I foresee no reason for this to happen

There will never be a reason

To commit such a unreasonable act

Time and time again

We shall spend our days together

Me thinking of you

Over anything else in this world

Time and time again

I cant stop thinking about you

Time and time again

I know the only thing that I will ever want

Would just to be within arms reach

To embrace you into my arms

Securing my love

Tightly into my arms

To have someone else

With a shoulder to cry on

When I would need it

Just, if that one day came

That would be the only thing that would make me fall

Unrecoverable

I just would not know what to do

So I tightly hold you in my arms

Making sure that you are safe

Not letting go

Just afraid to let go

Afraid of losing the only thing I have to live for

I just wish that you could see

The amount of love that I have for you

Never dieing

Never fading

Just longing to be with you

Day by day.

Ah, setbacks, setbacks.....

Unfortineately due to an error on my end.... the day my boyfriend comes has been pushed to the 27th, and departing from my place Jan 4th. Its all good still though, afterall. The love of my life is coming finally, and the day that I can embrace him in my arms creeps ever closer. The day when I finally get to peer into his eyes, and he can peer into mine. When that moment happens, we will see the true love that we have for each other.

The Day Approaches!!

Well, the day finally is drawing closer and closer. The day that I can finally hold the love of my life in my arms, and just hold him in my embrace. That day at the time of this posting is 12 days away, or around 288 hours. I just hope that I live up to his expectations.

Fithth round of lyrics...

Whew, looks like I am on a roll now.... Sorry if I am annoying you readers out there, but there isint really anything else to post at the moment, so here ya go

Title: The Madman

The madman sitting in the corner

Mind adrift

His face expressionless

Unreadable

People pass him by

Confused

Expressions unchanging

He sits there

In his own little world

Thinking differently

Knowing that he was abnormal

Knowing that he was different

He rarely spoke

A single word

His mind struggling

To describe the chaos inside his head

A battle

Everlasting in his mind

Questioning his reality

Curiously peering into the unknown

The dust was slowly building upon the one

In the corner

Until he roused

He took a step

He used his voice

People passing by

Shocked by his face

Showing his emotion

Showing his ideas

They stared at him

Dumfounded

At his ideas

Paralyzed by the look in his eyes

So confident

So brave

You could see his soul

Ablaze through his eyes

He stood there

Proudly

Willingly

The world around him

Changing

Into something unknown

It was already better

His job never done

He was the voice of the weak

And the powerless

He stood up to whatever threatened them

He helped them whenever they needed him

Extending his hand to whoever needed it

Grasping their hand firmly

Giving them more than he could

Taking less than he needed

Wanting to help

Those in need

Just grateful

To be there in the time of need

But this has yet to be seen

For this man has not emerged yet

This man, still sitting in the corner

Expressionless

This madman in the corner

Being me

Fourth round of lyrics

This is the fourth set of lyrics that I have made, personally this sums up the way I felt before I met my wonderful boyfriend, that saved, and changed my life forever.

Title: The way I felt before

Just a broken man

There was no one that could understand

How I felt inside

Not my mother

Not my brother

Nor my father

Could understand

It bothered me

It disturbed me

The stress was ever building

Upon my chest, suffocating

It became unbearable

My family concerned

I had no way of letting it out

Stress becoming ever heavier

My knees buckling under the weight

It concerned me

It made me uneasy

It made me detached

Leaving me confused

The world just passing by

Without a second thought

The time just wasting away

Ever eroding

Ever decaying

Into nothing

I had no use for the time

I just sat there

My mind idle and mute

Inside my own little world

Rejecting reality

Substituting my own

The silence of my life

Making me deaf

Making me blind

I could not inhale

The toxic fumes building up

I could not exhale

No one to tell me why

I could beat this matter of fact

It didn’t feel like anything mattered

It did not feel that I could do anything about it

Tried medicine as a cure

For these headaches goring the inside of my head

My mind slowly degrading

Into nothing

I thought I was not going to get through this

Something saved me though

No, actually it was someone

Slowly I began to realize

That he was the savior of my life

I began to realize

That he was the love of my life

Not knowing what to do at first

I was hesitant

Not willing to take another step forward

Over time I began to build up courage

So on that day I took another step

It turned out to be a leap

My life changing

At an alarming rate

It was stressful

It was almost overwhelming

I got through it though

There was someone by my side

Even though I did not show these feelings on the outside

On the inside, the seams of my mind

Tearing apart, stitch by stitch

He mended those seams

Saving my sanity

Giving me hope

Something to look forward to

He was the same as me

On the inside

So lost

So lonely

That day we met

We saved each other

Mending each others seams

Repairing each others faults

One another, being there

Whenever needed

Few people had my trust

Few people had my faith

But, this other soul that I met

Now has my trust

He now has my faith

As the days went on

I took a silent oath

Never to leave my loves side

Until the bitter, or not so bitter end

I gave him my faith

Along with my trust

On that day we met

It all at once became clear

That this would go far

That this would work out

He took the stress

So I could inhale

Breathing in all that I could

Beginning to exhale

Repeating the cycle

All over again

On that day

Our paths entwined

My mind at rest

My soul at peace

Still today

We stand strong

Side by side

An invisible bond, holding us together

Never failing

Forever entwined

Just another scrape on the wall

We call life

Second and thrid round of lyrics

Hey people, greetings again from a non-sick Mitchell Alexander Taylor (A.k.A. Owens). The cold I had last week absolutely kicked my ass, but it did give me time to make up some rough lyrics, as you have seen in the previous post. So here is my second and third go around for ya guys, again they are inspired by the intense feelings that I feel for my mate. Fernin Ker.

Title: Empty

Something was missing

Something was wrong

These feelings I was dismissing

All along

I felt so empty

I felt so alone

I felt so cold

There was just nothing

To make me whole

Now that has changed

Ah, yes it has changed

I met the love

The love of my life

Nothing was missing

Nothing was wrong

I wasn’t empty

I wasn’t alone

I wasn’t cold

Now I am whole

Now I have life

Now I have love

We walk down that path

We call life

Together

Forever.

Title: So alone, until then...

I had nothing to live for

Nothing to give

I had nothing to dream for

Nothing to hold

My life before

Was empty and cold

My life before

Was nothing to behold

My life before

Was growing so cold

I could not hold on

I could not give

I just could not give

Now there was a detour

On the path of life

Now that detour

Has saved my life

I have something to live for

No, someone to hold

I have something to give

I have something to dream for

Now I have something to hold

My life now

Is not so empty and cold

My life now

Is something to behold

My life now

Is not growing so cold

Now I can hold on

Now I can give

Now I can always give

I can give my never ending love

To this person that I behold

I can dream of this person

That I long to hold

I can be with this person

That I can hold

I can walk this path

That is not empty or cold

I can walk this path

With the one I behold

I can live my life

Not so empty and cold

I have a dream

I have a life

I have a mate

I have all I could ever want

All I could ever want

With this person I hold

I have all I could ever need

In this person that I behold

Some rough song lyrics that I made up.

These lyrics that I made up come from my heart, and are inspired by the love that I feel for my mate, Fernin.

Side by side

You and I

You and I standing side by side

Basking in each others love

Side by side we shall be

All I long to be

Is with you

For eternity

Forever yours

Forever faithful

Forever a mate

Until time’s end

We shall be

Side by side

You and I

Choosing you over anything else in this world

Over fame

Over fortune

Over success

Over power

The love between us

Is all that matters

Just love

Is all that I care about

Just love

Is all that I long

Just being with you

Is all that will make me whole

Our souls forever entwined

Forever bound together

Just you and I

Standing there

Side by side

Just side by side.