The Last 48 Hours of Freedom...

Well, today I am going to take a slight turn away from the "style" of my writing because as I am writing this, my last hours of freedom are dwindling away (I go back to school on the 31st) so I am enjoying the freedom while I can. So bring food! Bring Beer! Bring Friends! and PARTY HARD!!!!! *Cranks Andrew W.K, Party Hard*

(Just to let you know it is not wise to drink a whole 2 liter bottle of RC Cola, along with a 23.4 oz can of Jolt Cola.....)

*Being really hyper, I run around like a drunken idiot with ADHD*

Well, come and join the party!!! Dont just sit there!!!

Later all, Owens

Accusations? BULLSH!T !!!

Last night (Thursday) I turn on the T.V. to come across the show "Larry King Live", generally I do not watch the show, but something caught my attention this time. It was a live interview with Lance Armstrong (one of the people who I greatly admire), so I sit there for a while watching this interview because I like Lance. A few minutes into the interview I lean that a French newspaper is accusing Lance of "doping" in the 1999 Tour De France (however it is spelled), as soon as I learned that I had to call bullsh!t on that. Why would Lance Armstrong (quite possibly the strongest willed man alive today) even be a target of that accusation? I can tell you why, it is the French people hating him because he has won the Tour 7 times in a row (personally I do not have anything against the French, but I still despise them). I think that Lance is a victim of jealousy, because the French themselves do not have a single "strong willed" man in their population (again I do not have anything against the French). This is the type of thing that really pushes my buttons; the French are just whining because an "American" was better than them in their own "Tour De France". One of the reason's why I stand by Lance's side is because I know that he would not subject himself to this type of stuff, and another reason I stand by his side is because he has an seemingly endless amount of determination and willpower, and that is something that I admire. So again I say BULLSH!T, the people in France are just tired of being beaten at their own game on there own turf, so they decided to start up a political "flame war" with lance's cycling carrier and life.


I do not whish to start a "flame war" on this topic, but this is just something that really, really, pushes my buttons. Again though, I stand by Lance's side 100% .

This school year...

I think that this school year will be extremely different for me. The reason why I say that is because; I am a totally different person than before. I actually look at things from a really, really different point of view now. It is just that, I have a feeling that this year will be "interesting" for me. It may be in a bad way or a good way, who knows. Only time will tell, but I have a feeling that it will lean toward the good side (at least I hope so). Ever since I have gotten socially involved into the furry community, my views on the world have been changed dramatically. The ways that my views on the world have changed are way too many to list here, some are subtle, and some are really extravagant. But as I said, this year will be different form the past years.

Again the feeling...

I find myself yet again having this "funny" feeling in the pit of my stomach. For some strange reason, I have a hunch that something is going to drastically change somewhere at sometime. It may only affect me, or it might affect the world as a whole, or it just could be the 2 bottles of jolt I drank acting up. But just some aspect of it feels strange, like the hair on the back of my neck is almost on end, but I do not know why. Just I hope that whatever is changing in my life, or another person’s life is for the better.

Thoughts...

As I become more and more involved into the furry fandom, I realize how discriminated homosexuals are. It just sickens me that our "government" currently is full of anti-homosexual pricks, along with being narrow minded too. They do not realize that there is more to marriage than the typical "man and women" relationships. There are men and women out there that are attracted to the same sex, and you know what? THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT! If two men or women want to marry each other, LET THEM MARRY! Homosexuals should have every right as a straight man or women, homosexuals are people too (or in my case furry's) and they too are born with the god-given rights that the founding fathers of this land we call the U.S.A gave us.

So, if you want to join the fight to smash the "ban-hammer" that our "government" has put on homosexuals, go to this site http://www.hrcactioncenter.org/campaign/millionformarriageac , sign the petition, and made your voice be heard! Every person is born with a voice, along with the ability to use that voice. Some may not be able to be as loud as other individuals, but in numbers anything is possible. So get out there, use your voice, and make yourself heard.

I guess the main reason that I am doing this is because, that I am coming to terms that myself, I am homosexual.

Again, I am abnormal, I am an individual, and I have a voice.

The admitance

I finally admit that I am bisexual, but leaning more towards the homosexual side at the moment. It is just that I am attracted to some males, and some females, but at the moment I am more attracted to males. And to those who think homosexuality is "taboo" it's not! I mean why separate a person into a group where they are socially, politically, and just generally hated? There is no need for that crap! To those who think that homosexuals should be segregated from the general public, you should be ashamed of yourself! Just because they don’t like the opposite sex does not mean you have the right to publicly humiliate them, people like that just make me sick. They do not deserve to represent "humanity" people who discriminate against homosexuals are sub-human. It may be 'taboo" in the bible, but WHO CARES! I sure as hell don’t. That does not mean that you should shove it in their face. If they are attracted to the same sex LET THEM BE! And for the record I am HOMOSEXUAL! So if you have a problem with that I DO NOT CARE! Try to shove it in my face that it is "wrong" and that it is "sinful" I just DONT CARE! I have never practiced faith and I never will. And that subject will be for another day.

Well I am tired and I want to go to bed, feel welcome to flame me, to shun me to the deepest depts. But just remember, I am not your average 16 year old (turning 17 in October) and I do have a voice and I WILL USE IT, wither you, the person next to you, or the person on the opposite side of the world does not like it. I WILL STILL USE IT!

Well to all good night, later all.

Regards, Owens.

The Rage...

Lately, I have been finding myself on the brink of going into a rage, but for what reason? Hell if I knew. It is just, that I have had the feeling of trashing everything in sight in my room. Yet I still keep it bottled up. Because I still need the stuff in my room because it is all that I have for now, if I had the opportunity to just go into a rage without any consequences and without hurting others. I would take that opportunity in a half of a heartbeat. I just feel that I need to vent all of my built up anger, and sadness. But I just need to find a way to do it safely.

With me, you cannot always judge me by what you see.

The Pain

The pain that life gives me empowers me. I use this pain to remind myself that I am an individual, and that I am an individual that has a fighting chance. The pain I feel pulsing throughout my body every day is what drives me, I know that I can eventually come to a point where pain is not a factor, but a benefit to me. The pain in life is what keeps people sane along with keeping them in their place, and it instills common sense to people who use it to their advantage. I see the pain of life is unbeatable, but I can use it to my advantage. I can use it to power my voice so it is not heard be few, but turn it into a voice that is heard by all.

Out of conrol? (who know's)

As I lie in my bed, my mind starts picking up speed. I start thinking about random things, like what I am going to do the next day, or what I am going to write on my blog. Just random crap, just for once I would like to get my mind under control, and have some peace of mind. I think it's a curse, yet a blessing that I have the mind that I possess. The reason I think it's a curse is that; I do not stop thinking about things once I have set my mind to it. Once I set my sights on something I need to do, I keep hammering away at it. Ill keep hammering at it until my hands bleed, even then Ill keep at it. The reason that I think it is a blessing is that I have an extreme amount of determination and willpower. If I am faced with a challenge that is out of my grasp, ill do all that I can to get to that goal, it is a power that I feel, the power to never back down, and the power to succeed.

Life is a bullet

As I stand here in the war-torn field we call life, I feel a bullet tear through my chest. The bullet ruthlessly making its way through my chest, tearing every fiber it comes across. As the bullet finishes its work, I start to fall toward the ground. As I fall towards the ground, I realize what all I have done, what I can still do. I finish my trip to the ground; I hit it hard with a sickening thud. I lay there looking up to the sky, wondering if I will survive the punishment that life has given me. I know that I will, because an unknown force drives me. It feels that an invisible force is pushing me so. As I sit there I find new strength and I get up off of the ground, covered with a deep tone of crimson. But I push on and fight, and live another day.

Peace? There is no such thing.

As I see it, true "world" peace will never be obtained. As long as humans walk this planet, there will be a disagreement, there will be a spot of violence, and there will always be a difference among the views of humans. And where there is a difference of views, there is violence, eventually leading up to war. After the war between the two groups of humans there is a very short period of peace, and then the whole process repeats itself. This process will be an unlimited cycle because there will always be a disagreement between humans one time or another.

The Truth

As I stand before a shattered mirror, my hand dripping with blood. I realize that the reality that I so desperately want is unreachable. This is what drives me so, almost to the point of insanity. Just knowing that I have the power to change the world, but not having the means to do so is maddening beyond the point of return. So, I stand in front of this broken mirror looking back at the distant, yet perfect world I crave so much.